Some days this Christian walk is extremely hard like marching through the Sahara Desert without water. As one takes in the hot criticism of society and feels the dryness of every wind of doctrine in the air, one can feel quite defeated. Personally, there are spaces and moments of depression and desperation that cause me to question my own faith. I think I can imagine what the craze might be like if one is dehydrated for a long period of time in the middle of the desert…
Those moments when you may feel dried up like a sponge left in the sun or a wineskin in the smoke, what do you do to overcome?
81. My soul faints for Your salvation,
But I hope in Your word.
82. My eyes fail from searching Your word,
Saying, “When will You comfort me?”
83. For I have become like a wineskin in smoke,
Yet I do not forget Your statutes.
The Bible teaches plainly than anyone who seeks to live a Godly life with Jesus as their Lord will suffer persecution ( 2 Timothy 3:12). And that persecution comes because of the Word (Matt 13:21); that the word we have heard MUST be tested. But we’re exhorted to “count it all joy” when we fall into these periods of testing, knowing that these tests produce patience and perfection so that we can receive the Crown of Life (James 1); for the genuiness of our faith is more precious than gold (though it be tried by fire!) (1 Peter 1:7)
So we should expect the heat of the day and the dryness in our souls, yet though our souls may be faint, we cannot give in. We cannot turn back. Our faith must stand on His word….
81. My soul faints for Your salvation, But I hope in Your word…
I personally feel I have no choice but to go on. I have come too far to only come this far! Yes, there are times I feel emptied out like this dried wineskin the psalmist refers to. But what other choice do I really have? Could I really go back to the lifestyle of sin that I had? Could I really just abandon the hope that I have in Jesus Christ and accept the teachings of the world? Could I go on believing that there is no God or no judgement or no credible explanation of why I am here and why life is this way? Could I go back into the matrix and forget all that I know God has done for me and be plugged back in?
There’s no way! I must go forward! We must lay aside the sins and weights that trap us and run with endurance this race that is before us, clinging to Jesus when our life depends on it…like our life depends on it….because our life depends on it. And the lives of all those who know us depend on the genuineness of our faith also.
So though you may wonder….
84. How many are the days of Your servant?
When will You execute judgment on those who persecute me?
85. The proud have dug pits for me,
Which is not according to Your law.
86. All Your commandments are faithful;
They persecute me wrongfully;
Respond like the psalmist…
87. They almost made an end of me on earth,
But I did not forsake Your precepts.
88. Revive me according to Your lovingkindness,
So that I may keep the testimony of Your mouth.
Psalms 119: 81-88
Know that it is a part of this walk to have lows and to go through adversity. But we must look to the hills from whence comes our help, for our help comes from the Lord! And He will come! Surely He’s on His way! Surely He is already here! By the blood of Jesus we have already overcome!
Don’t forsake! Don’t forget! Just hope! Just pray!